Feeling the Burn

So I tried on a couple bathing suits a few weeks ago, and I almost vomited in the dressing room from the white flabby blob that was staring back at me in the mirror. I will admit, this is completely my fault, because when Winter hits, I put on sweatpants, curl up in front of the fireplace, and don't resurface until Spring.

I have not worked out in several weeks, unless you consider scraping ice off my car windows an upper body workout. Also, I've really worked up my speed running from the front door to my car in the mornings. But alas, I've grown tired of being utterly disgusting, so I started Jillian Michael's "30 Day Shred."

I've started this program about 7 times, and I always get 2-3 weeks into it, then get too busy to keep up with it. Right now I'm in the middle of it, and I've taken the last few days off because of being completely exhausted and sick. I promise, I'm not giving up though. Here's how it's gone thus far:

First day: "This isn't so bad...I'm not THAT out of shape"
Second day: "Oh my god, I can't move my legs or arms. I can't walk, I can't sit, I can't stand, I didn't even know I had a muscle there."
Third day: "I can do this...I think"
Fourth day: "I can do this!"
Fifth day: "This is cake"(time to move onto Level 2)
Sixth day: Level 2 - See second day.

Right now I'm still on Level 2 and somewhere between days 3 and 4 in the endurance/mentality department...but if I would just keep up with it EVERY day like you're supposed to, it would be much easier. I WILL get to Level 3, but I just hope I don't look like Jillian Michaels at the end of it all. Yes, she's fit...but she looks like a man. Not the look I'm going for.